I remember many years ago I fell in love, so deep in love. You were my everything, but it’s only me, sadly. I remembered me asking God why can’t you choose me?
Why can’t you see me? Why can’t I be the one for you? So many whys so much desperation. You never know how much I loved you.
Years gone by, and I fell in love again, and I found you, but again same as before, it happens again, it’s only me. Not you. But this time, you knew, but you can’t and you don’t love me.
Can people have two love in their heart and both are unrequited? Apparently yes. I was, and still am.
Moving on? Oh I’ve been moving on, a lot. But you can’t tell heart what to do. You can’t just wipe your love to someone just like that. You just can’t. The heart says ‘No’
I still love them, a lot. I only able to not thinking about them every day, like I used to. I know people think I’m wasting my time, you know, being 33 and never been in a real relationship (or one that last more than 2 weeks, thank YOU very much). But I feel like I didn’t waste my time, Love never waste anyone’s time.
I became numb, emotionally challenged, because I just don’t want to feel anything. I don’t want to be in pain anymore. I chose to be alone.
I’m not throwing myself out there, just because I’m single. You can’t just be with someone just because you HAVE to have someone. The heart will choose. But apparently my heart was drunk all the time and chose the wrong person over and over again.
Love sure is blind, but I am pretty sure that it can hear something, Oh? Its deaf too? Shit.
Now? I’m ready to forget my feelings for them, if that possible.
So will you be the right one this time?